talk about weird day. First of all i went to school and had my shirt on backwards lol! and then i totally spaced out and went into the wrong class, sat down and started to read. the teacher just stared at me for a bit until i finally looked up and saw where i was LOL >< and then i slapped a guys butt who wasnt my friend -_- totally thought it was russ. then i came home and oddly enough, i went into my moms room to take a bath and i looked out the window and what did i see? Behold a bat! i have no idea what it was doing in the middle of the day there but it was just kickin it on the screen of the window. And of course, me loving to study animals, stared at it for oh twenty minutes or so before i got bored and went to get some money from my mom cause im going to see a movie with three of my guy friends in about fifteen minutes or so. But anyway so i went to see how the bat was when i got home and it was in the sun and breathing really fast so i feel bad for it and went found a tissue box, cut out one of the sides and duct taped it to the screen over the bat. LOL i have to admit though, that bat is SO cute ^^ (even though i wouldnt touch it not even with super duty gloves) then again i lied, id touch it if i really had too...lol anywho russ just called so sexysgirl out!

today in school i looked up on a indian horoscope about what my spirit guide was and surprise surprise, its horses and owls! Okay i'll admit it i was a little surprised with the owl but the horse was a given. For example, for any of you who have read my latest work, waking up to reality, you pretty much know how things are going for me with that stuff...well here's some good news. Today, same day i wrote that, i was really depressed and felt that there was no one there to talk to and i mean really talk to, not type, call, or even meet in person. there was no one and even me and my mom dont talk very much about that stuff so i was feeling really down. Well i was bawling like i do and decided to go for a drive when my mom came home and of course i headed out to my dad's grave when i had a sudden thought, go to lorena's now lorena is my boss/boss's wife. to explain this i work at a ski resort which her husband, joe, manages while she is a dog groomer so i am frequently out to their place. Well i went out there and i saw her six horses and decided that that's where i needed to be. So i went and told her what i was doing and then headed to the horses. And just to show you guys how crazy i am about animals, i can name every horse in my town, and this is a farm town. and i know every breed of horse, dog, cat, and i saved over fifteen animals in just ten years. Well anyway, so here i am surrounded by six amazing animals and shawheen, the one i used to ride two years ago, and pahzaz, the other horse i use to ride but not so much as shawheen, stayed by my side as i cried my eyes out while the others left. Shawheen and Paz, just stood over me, letting me cry my heart out and they never left or even moved as i held onto one of their legs. And after my good long cry and pretty much pouring my heart out to them (yes i talk to my animals!) i got to my feet and was amazed again as Shawheen licked my face when he's never ever done that before. And surprise surprise, i cried again. You may not understand this but, they reassured me that no matter how lonely i felt, they'd always be there for me. Even after two years of not seeing them at all, they were there for me when no one else was.
To me those horses are the bandages that i needed to tie my heart back together. Horses really are amazing creatures and i want everyone to know that! i will do all in my power to keep them safe because they said more to me by just standing there than any human ever has by talking! And they are also how i decided what i want to do with my life. Animals are always helping me so i decided it was about time that i help them by becoming a vet! that's to all of those who hate or abuse horses! try and say they are stupid beasts to my face and you'll see just how much i love them.
And on a other note, IM STILL SHOCKED IM A SENIOR!!!!

well to start it off im gonna just rip it off like a bandaid and just say that my father passed away and it was extremely hard on me and my family but i am couping with it and am doing alright. i have my break down days but everyone needs them once in a while so dont worry. i am now a senior in high school and i already have a place of my own >< but im not gonna leave my mom alone just yet so ill just let my roomies take care of it till i get there. anyway um...ive had over five guys ask me out this summer ALL OVER the age of twenty three. GUYS IM ONLY SEVENTEEN! i actually wanted to date this one guy and i did for a bit but when his twenty year old ex showed up at the panda express we were eating at, well have you ever seen on animes how there is lightening coming from both their eyes and meet in the middle creating a storm of doom? yeah well thats basically what happened. LOL actually i think she was younger but im not sure. anyway i figured out that the guy was kinda creepy so i decided not to date him. um....oh i decided i am gonna be a vet and am going to be shadowing a vet next year. Oh and i got my hair chopped. At first everyone told me not to do it, saying my neck was too long and it wouldnt look good on me but i just decided that i was tired of what everyone thought about me and didnt care any more so i went and did it and i have had more complements now than i did with my long hair. Oh and most who complement me are guys so good enough. So for any of you who still care about what people thing, DONT! they arent gods or kings so i say screw 'em! its your body, your life, your business! oh but dont over do it like drinking and smoking and pretty much FUCKING YOUR LIFE UP! dont do that!

well nothing really has happened lately in my life so i cant give you much of an update on the awesome life of sexysgirl. Oh but my third bro just had a son and he's so cute! that makes me an aunt of three boys and seven girls! yay! (that was sarcastic) anyway i love the little devils ^^. and thats all for now.